Decisions.

A decision has been made,not an easy one and it is obviously changeable at any time depending on whether Peanuts heart gets any worse or not.
Sarah has decided that baby(nanna's ickle Peanut) deserves a bash at life.So we are all here to support her and Peanut if he should need it.
So back to the knitting needles and crochet hooks for me.

Sad news

It looks like our Sarah's baby isn't meant to be,things are so bad with his heart they have offered to terminate/induce labour anytime from now till her due date.They can operate,but it will be a series of ops and he will be physically unable to do anything much and will probably end up with brain damage too.
My poor girl.

Today I really ,really need a cigarette

As you regulars will know I have a pair of pregnant daughters,sadly my poor Sarah has had more bad news.
Having gotten the all clear after CVS testing it has now been discovered that baby has hypoplastic right heart syndrome and at the very least will need major heart surgery as soon as he is born.Sarah is off to Leicester tomorrow to see a pediatric cardiothoracic surgeon,we will know more then.Now Sam has to go for extra tests as it turns out their fathers family forgot to tell anyone that they had a child who died from a congenital heart defect.
So now I am knitting(yes I have taught myself to knit) little easy access clothes with lots of odd fastenings and openings for tubes etc,so if the little peanut makes it he will still have to suffer nanny's clothes.
I have had to come off my medication for arthritis,I have been having a whole load of odd symptoms from disturbed vision and vertigo to palpitations and rat up the nether regions wind amongst others,seems my body really doesn't like anti inflammatories.So back to square one with that.
Can I have a ciggy now ? please !